Sunday, February 13, 2011

Take two

Today's question: Something's shifted. The tone has changed. Do I start over with a new blog, or keep on with this one, even though, as far as I can tell, the funny (such as it was) has fallen out?

One reason to keep this blog is that it's been around for over three years, which is like 30 in internet years. Long enough for me to have become the target of spammers --guess that's some measure of, uh, success. I actually got pissed enough to turn off comments. Since I seem to be a bit of an attention-whore, that's a big deal.

I love knowing there's a teeny little audience out there. Will I post if there's no chance of getting virtual pats on the head in return? Tough one.

One reason to close this blog is the archives. Documentation of three insanely beautiful, agonizing, frustrating, exhilarating years of my life. It's an exquisitely painful reminder of getting what I always wanted, discovering reality rarely follows the scripts of our wildest dreams, watching it all slip away. Also, the realization that lightening won't strike twice. That was it-- that's all I get.


Do I stay or do I go? The answer? No clue. Can't wait to see how it all works out.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The Grand Experiment

Believe me, I tried, but I couldn't find a good enough excuse to get out of it.

I've set up some rules of engagement so I'm not just dangling in the breeze. No Facebook, although I do get email notifications when someone posts on my wall or sends a message. It would be rude not to read those, right? Personal email twice a day, morning and evening. Blog feeds in the morning, and the newspaper online. Videos and music are allowed, but no (gulp!) games. Also, I've decided blogging is allowed, since it's the closest thing I have to journaling. And everyone says journaling is good, right?

Sounds harsh, but it's not that far off from the way things were 15 years ago. Well, except for the blogs and newspapers and music and video...

OK, not really, but you get my point.

Yeah, I'm kinda scared. I'm not going cold turkey or anything, but the thought of all that TIME opening up has me feeling a bit agoraphobic. And we all know how much I love changes in my routine. Heh.

Three, two, one....